To be honest?
I feel like nothing but a fuck up. I wasted almost 4 years of my life on someone.
I lost the most precious thing to me.
I actually depended on smoking & drinking.
I messed around with the erong guys.
I let myself be used, hurt & repeated the process all over again.
I fucked up the relationship between me & my mom.
I disappointed the most important person in my life.
And I’m living with nothing but regrets.

Everyone might say I’m doing so great but all I see are my failures.

And to be honest ? No one knows how I feel. Because the smile I wear ? It isn’t real. The confidence I show ? It’s faked. And the person I thought I was ? I don’t even know anymore.

But no one knows. Because they don’t ask.